Remember what keeps you happy

Hello everyone,

sorry for disappearing for a month from this blog..

Kinda busy with works lately, and got time to write up again here on this blog.

I miss my writing, so here I am now at almost 1 a.m typing in front of my lovely laptop listening to Afrojack - Ten Feet Tall, one of my favorite song in current few months.

Well I'll write this blog with few more language, so it will be more "friendly". lol

So, as you could read above,

Remember what keeps you happy.

Really, do you ever remember things that make you happy even in simplest way?

I do (not really I remember everything tho).

But, I just know the moment something makes me smile, I guess I am happy.

Well maybe a little.

For example, when you got a delivery package in front of your doorhouse from a shop, when you bought something online.

It's like "Oh finally *with smile*" nah I did that.

Or maybe when... someone special texted you "Hi."

*BOOM* I know you're smiling that moment. hahahahahaha

Don't count your happiness just when you got something expensive.

Yes I know that everyone lovessss expensive things.

But it is more precious if you got something that had a meaning of it.

For example, oh you got a branded bags because it's your first ever authentic bag that you bought with your own money *your job-money*, not because it's your parents money or bla bla bla.

Pastinya kamu merasa PUAS meski bakal ada pikiran OMG tabunganku berkurang banyak blah blah blah, BUT kamu bakal bener2 jaga itu barang because you know itu hasil kerja kamu sendiri, lain hal kalau pemberian dr ortu, palingan berapa lama uda bosen keleussss. (well happen to me LOL)

I won't count how much I spent to be happy.

In fact, real happiness can't be bought with money right.

Those flowers that blooms inside your heart, in the most simplest way.

Nah I am sorry that I sounds too cheesy lah.

Happiness is when.... you had something that makes you realize that Life is much more beautiful to be happy for, maybe a job you had, bestfriends that you love (and maybe if they love you back), someone that maybe makes you realize that reality is finally much more better than your dreams. Though I haven't met that "someone". LOL

Romantis dikit boleh lah ya :D

Nah, sekarang buntu nih mau ngomong apaan.

Intinya nih ya, bahagia itu simple, saat hati dan pikiran kamu udah "plong" meskipun beban berat masih ada, but you know what you had to do..

Deal with it, life goes on, and you moved on, bukan berarti elu LUPAIN, mau lu hapus foto, mau lu delete contact, yg namanya MEMORY itu STAY FOREVER, mana bisa lupa coy, bisa sih kalo lo ga stuck in one place that had thousand memories and you  moved to another country or maybe another city. Good if you had that chance.

Kecuali kalo lo AMNESIA, baru tuh lu bisa bilang move on, galau? inget masalah lu sebelum amnesia aja boro2 boo. *lol*

Life is much more easier to worry less alias WOLES aja bro,

asal tau mana yg baik dan buruk, and SET YOUR LIMITS!

Udah tua sob, kurang-kurangin nyusahin orang apalagi diri sendiri.

Kurang-kurangin main2, nyakitin hati orang.

Ati-ati deh karma itu ada loh, you got what you've done.

Nah lho bingung kan sama ini kata2, jelasnya aja sih ibaratnya nih ya..

"Kalo lo kasih orang lain tai, suatu saat lu dikasih tai juga sama orang lain.

Kalo lo kasih rezeki ke orang lain, nanti lu juga bakal dapet rezeki juga."

Gitu aja muter terus coy, ga susah-susah amat sih.

Nah kalo lo di jahatin orang, ga usah dibales, emang sih LORO ATI BRO, tapi inget...

nanti juga yg jahatin elu dijahatin sama orang lain, apalagi kalo lu dijahatin sama org yg lu sayang pake bingittt, ntar juga doi dijahatin sama orang yg doi sayang pake bingittt.

Bisa jadi lebih parah (bukan doain sih, but that's exactly what I know for sure, cuz it happened to me once, well maybe twice or more than that. NAH jd curcol kan gueh.)

Makanya lain kali jangan baper, jadi galau kan lo.

And here's one of my fave quote for you guys, and be sure to remember....

"Karma's only a BITCH if YOU ARE."

So that was the end of this post, this was kind of random post I guess.. 

Well maybe I'll post some of my makeup look on the next blog.

Got some endorsements that I like to post on this blog.

Stay tune!!!

thanks for capturing, I am giggling! xD

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                                                                                              Lia ♥

Being a makeup artist

Hello everyone,
so this was my very first time post where I want to share about my life as a makeup artist for almost past 2 years, starting from late 2013.
Really, this is the first time I talk about my job, not about portfolio or whatever.
As you know I've been posted my portfolio in other post.
And now let me share to you my thoughts.

If you see someone other than me who's having the same job, you barely think that our JOB is kind of fun and easy. YES I admit it's FUN, but not as easy as you could say. The fun part is you get satisfaction of dolling up someone, make them prettier, but the difficult part is when your clients had too much favor to ask (not in a bad way fyi). Okay let me use an Indonesian next to make it easier.

When I still in junior high, I always wanted to be a fashion designer.
I love drawing, from the beginning, i love art!
Waktu itu sih masih kecil ya aku, cuma udah suka aja gambar2 mewarnai, my mom used to had a textile shop back when I still unborn. Jadi dia masih simpan buku contoh2 model baju, celana, rok, atau apapun itu. And I used to coloring her book because it's already unused.
Since then, aku suka gambar entah itu orang2an, ataupun model baju. I know I'm not a pro, but i loveeee it. I always dreamed that someday i will had my own labels & wearing my own designs.

Tapi seiring berjalannya waktu, keinginan untuk jadi designer juga sedikit demi sedikit berkurang, but still masih aja suka gambar dimanapun itu, pernah waktu kelas 9 senior high, it's mathematics, aku selalu duduk di bangku paling belakang, karena aku bukan type orang yg suka matematika, I always draw anything on my text book, or my note book. Ga sengaja guru pengajarku melihat, dia marah dan melempar penghapus papan tulis kearah mejaku, spontan aku kaget. HAHAHAHA
Aku bukan type orang yg suka mendengarkan pelajaran. I hate that tho.

Okay back to topic, so as I grow older, I was thinking about any career that's not too difficult to do.
Tidak pernah aku berpikir bakal jadi makeup artist seperti sekarang ini, suerrrr deh.
Jangankan jadi makeup artist, yang namanya duku sekolah ga pernah mau dikasih tanggung jawab tugas apapun itu.
But now? look at me,
Sekarang dilatih untuk bertanggung jawab dihari penting klien!!
Bukan hal yang mudah, mengingat aku bukan orang yang suka bangun pagi, disuruh ini itu, bla bla bla..

This JOB change me, well not whole me, but a big part of me.
Aku tidak pernah berpikir ingin menjadi orang yang dikenal semua orang (setidaknya sudah mulai dikenal publik untuk saat ini), dulu aku anti-social, bukan org yg pendiam sih. Cuma sulit untuk bisa membaur dengan banyak orang, mostly strangers. And dulu... I am kind of racist. 

Why did I started to get to know makeup?
First of all, I love makeup. I had tons of makeup before I had this job.
Dan salah satu alasan mengapa aku mulai sedikit rajin untuk mau belajar lagi, untuk merintis karir, adalah untuk menunjukkan pada seseorang kalau aku bisa, I thank every moment, momen saat diinjak-injak, diperolok, direndahkan, because I am JOBLESS after graduated from high school and just spending my time to spend my parent's money.
And thankyou for you (you know who you are), sudah membuka mata dan pikiran untuk aku bisa lebih maju, seperti sekarang ini meskipun aku belum  bisa dibilang sukses (sukses untuk aku means I can buy a home, well my own home, or my own car). Mungkin kalau ga ada kamu, yg motivasi aku, yg ejek2 aku, well.. ga ada aku yg sekarang. So thankyou, for the good & the bad part you give for me. Even I could say that it's more bad part you give. haha :)

Beberapa dari kalian mungkin yg sudah pernah makeup di aku, pasti heran kenapa kalau nge-job, ga pernah bawa koper makeup yg ada lampu2nya, seperti MUA lain kan. Well it's simple, aku ga mau ribet bawa2 barang banyak, apalagi kalau harus pindah dr lokasi 1 ke lokasi 2 dan seterusnya..
You know how tiring it is to pack and unpack, and I am afraid to broke all my makeup stuffs in makeup case. OH imagine that case is so heavy, bahkan sebelum di isi perlatan makeup bla bla bla..
I know it sounds not so professional, YES I know lah.
But it's not about how I carry my makeup with case or not, it's all about the result.
Emang kalau bawa koper makeup, hasil makeup'nya bakal langsung jadi bagus?
Memang sih kadang butuh lighting yang cukup, beberapa hotel atau rumah tidak mempunyai pencahayaan yang bagus. I admit that.

And also other things that will ruin our mood as a makeup artist itu saat client (maaf) sedikit2 komentar, ini beda itu beda dll. Bukan mau aku bersifat sensi, tapi tolong lah hargai usaha kami MUA ini yang masih belum selesai kerja, aku juga ga mungkin dong buat alis kamu kanan kiri beda, atau bulu mata kanan dan kiri beda. Tidak ada kata asal-asalan buat aku dlm memoles wajah orang, karena hasil yang aku buat itu juga untuk keuntungan aku sendiri, untuk promosi di instagram, kalau hasilnya ga okay masa mau dipromosiin sih. So I tried to do my best to makeover all of my clients.

Banyak orang yang pasti bertanya, pakai produk apa sih, awet ga, bla bla bla..
Tenang ajaaa, semua produk yg aku pakai buat merias kamu itu juga produk2 yang aku pakai kalo dandan, bukan melebih-lebihkan atau apa ya, kalau kamu lihat hasil foto dan minta dirias persis seperti yang kamu tunjukin fotonya, I WILL. But in condition, kalau2 ga sama persis pun pasti ada sebabnya..
1. Bentuk mata tiap orang berbeda jadi impossible kalo kamu minta sama persis, kan kita jg cocokin bentuk muka kamu dan mata kamu, jadi ga sembarangan aja buat tp hasilnya NOOOOO
2. Kondisi kulit, kunci dari flawless makeup itu ya dari kulit yang sehat (bukan bermaksud menghina ya), if you see my makeup is flawless it's because I make sure that my skin is not broken. I had combination skin which is dry to normal, not so oily. Aku ga bisa bilang bakal sulap muka kamu jadi flawless (kalau kondisi kulit wajah kamu *maaf* kasar dan berlubang-lubang), but at least I try to cover it a little bit. Please, merawat kulit terutama wajah itu penting! :)
3. Pricelist aku BUKAN diutamakan semata2 pakai barang2 makeup yg bermerk, tau ga sih.. ga semua makeup yg bermerk itu BAGUS buat kulit, kondisi masing2 orang berbeda yah, kalo aku sih jujur aja.. ga terlalu cocok pakai yanng namanya branded makeup like chanel. Entah kandungan makeupnya terlalu keras atau kult aku yg sensitif.
Konteks disini adalah saya menjual JASA bukan menjual MERK, sekali lagi saya perjelas yah.
JASA bukan MERK sisss :)

I met a lot of different face & character in past 2 years being a freelance MUA.
entah dr segi kata2nya waktu booking makeup, gimana cara mereka merespon, dan tidak jarang mereka yang sudah dijawab akan perihal pricelist bilang.. "tinggi juga ya harganya" hahaha.. Well, there's a lot of MUA who had more high pricelist than me lho just so you know..
So far thank GOD it went well, meskipun ada 1 atau 2 client (mantan client) yang perlakuannya tidak menyenangkan atau tidak mengerti etika berjualan jasa (maaf kalau ada yg tersinggung).
Sebagai contoh nih, semisal kamu punya 1 client yg booking untuk acara seventeen/engagement, tapi situasinya dia ga pernah makeup di kamu, otomatis kan kamu minta DP untuk acara yg dia booking.
Then suatu hari, jauh sebelum hari H, dia booking kamu untuk party biasa gitu, otomatis kamu kan ga mungkin minta DP lagi cuz dia sudah ada appointment lagi kan udah percaya ajaa.
Then setelah selesai makeup party itu (yah itung2 dia buat trial makeup gitu), dia blg transfer aja pembayaran yg party makeup, ya udah aku OK aja toh percaya gitu lho.
The next day, kamu dpt text dr si client itu kalo dia masih mau pikir2 lagi kalau mau pakai jasa kamu buat hari pentingnya itu, dan yg kemarin party makeup itu emg belum di transfer dan minta bisa ga dipotong aja dr uang DP yg next appointment (kan beda acara beda price nih ya pastinya) dan sisa uangnya kita ambil aja soalnya dia yg batalin.

NAH, the problem is.. kalau bookingnya beda appointment payment nya juga beda dong, masa disamain gitu aja. yg namanya kalo kita jual jasa dan kerjaan kita selesai kan mustinya di lunasin dulu. Appointment selanjutnya tuh lain cerita gitu. Contoh nih ya misal kamu beli TV di toko 1, kamu DP dulu soalnya barangnya masi kosong di counter cabang yg kamu datengin itu, trus the next day kamu mau beli player atau kamera di toko itu lagi, kamu blg potong aja dr DP TV kemarin soalnya kamu batal mau ambil TV itu. HELLOO mana bisa kan ya..  yg namanya DP lain barang, kalo km batalin otomatis hangus donggg.. Bukan kita mau komersil nih, cuma logikanya ya yg masuk akal gitu. Kalo main batal2 pesen TV gitu pdhl udah diorderin yg rugi tokonya kan, apalagi kalo TV yg puluhan juta, belum tentu jg tuh TV bakal laku lagi.

Tapi karena udah ga mau ribut & lagian pasti nih client ga akan balik lagi ke kamu, ya udah deh ga usah panjang2 urusannya, bilangin gini aja.. "harusnya ya ga boleh gitu, tapi ya udah lah. Thx"
Kan ga salah kita MUA kalo bikin info supaya ga kejadian lagi hal yang kyk gini dikemudian hari, ehh si client ini entah tersinggung atau gimana, tanggepinnya sinis kasih info lagi lewat msg, "uangnya udah aku transfer yg kemarin. lain kali please be nice to people. bla bla bla.."
Anjirrr, aku kan udah blg gapapa, emg salah kalo infoin ke org lain yg bakalan jd calon client biar ga kejadian kyk begitu lagi. Ya udah ga banyak omong aku bales aja "thx", kan kita ga bilang minta si client suruh transfer. Ya udahlah toh ga bakal balik, buat apa panjang lebar mau jelasin juga yg namanya udah salah ngartiin mau gimana lagi. Ya ga sih?


Suka duka jadi makeup artist yah gitulah.
Banyak saingan, entah dr sesama makeup artist, atau dr yg lain..
Kalo aku sih ya don't care, sportif aja kalo kerja sis, makeup itu ga bisa dipaksain, cocok2an sama selera masing2 orang. Jadi kalo lu tanya bagus ga sih di dia, bla bla bla.. Ya lu coba aja, kan selera, ga bisa ngomong.. Bagus di kita belum tentu bagus di dia ya kann.. =)

Well, I guess that's enough for now..
I wanna thank all of my generous clients for choosing me as your makeup artist, I am so sorry if I do or said something wrong, this was just my own opinion, so no hard feeling yaa :)

Here's my instagram account :
Lia Octaviani Jayapranata
And here's my portfolios IG :
Ms.Lia Octaviani Makeupartist

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                                                                                              Lia ♥

Heart to heart

Hello everyone,
been few weeks didn't check on my blog, kinda busy with my bro's wedding day last week.
It's kinda unbelievable that he's now a married man. HAHAHA.
Well yeah.. it means that now I am the last one. OH, I still had one left cousin haven't married yet.

It's December already, yeah time flies so fast, and it's almost Christmas.
Well today.. I guess we had a heart-to-heart kind of thing again. After few months didn't get chances to "curhat" kind of thing here. I know that it's not a necessary thing, but here I am, I'm good at writing not talking especially when it's face-to-face. I go blank. I know I had a lot to ask, but seems like I couldn't find the right words to ask. Or maybe I am too afraid to face the truth. Well yeah that's me.
I'd rather keep it to myself than to express what I really felt, and then regret for not asking what I really want to ask.

So here's the thing, let me ask you a question.
I know this is weird. Don't get me wrong.
"Have you ever love someone to the point where you want to kill yourself for loving them too much, but you can't do anything about it, and when you had a chance to tell 'em because they asked, but the answer you got is too heartbreaking. And it stays on your mind, affects your mood, and you don't know what to do next.
And do you ever feel.. it seems like you really win, but the situation won't let you win?"
Okay I know my question is a little bit confusing.
I guess it's just me who can't get over something so fast, like "oh okay, you suck, get lost."
My life is too ironic I guess. I couldn't find any word to describe what I really feel exactly.

At some point, you know that maybe there's a little bit of feelings they left about you, maybe it's love, or maybe hatred towards you. Who knows?
And maybe they really love you, but their actions seems just... not reflecting that they really love you. Because if you really love someone, you didn't destroy the one you love.
MAYBE THEY LOVE YOU, BUT THEY DIDN'T LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO THE POINT WHERE THEY DIDN'T EVEN ONCE TRY TO FIX WHAT THEY BROKE.
Oh yeah, I guess yeah that's the matter..

Still, I had tons of questions that haven't been answered yet.
Can I just lists it below? Well, okay..
1. Why me?
2. Why am I always be the one who got blamed for making a decision that we both know I am not the one who made mistakes?
3. Why she can, but I can't?
4. Is it wrong to be "still" in love with someone I can't have?
5. Give me some proof that if you really love me back then.
6. Why did you force me to say what I don't wanna say in front of you? And then you give me an un-acceptable answer after that.
7.  Why did you still there, when you said that we will never be "us". (if you got what I mean)
8. If you tell me that it's for my own sake that we can never be together, it's my choice if I wanted to stay, and it's my choice too if I wanted to leave. CAN'T YOU SEE THAT after the time pass?
9. No matter how hard I try, and no matter how fuckin' tired I am, I can never erase you from my mind.
10. I know maybe at some point people said that you bring all the negative side for me. But I didn't think so. They maybe just knew the story, but not the one who walked in my shoes.
11. If you really want me to live my own way, forget everything, and get over my feelings, WHY ARE YOU STILL THERE?
12. I exactly know that having another man maybe can help, but I DON'T WANT TO.
I surely know exactly how it feels.
13. Be careful for your words, it hurts me, really. You just can't see it through my face. But I swear it hurts, and maybe if you were me, you'll be in tears.
14. If I already ask you those, what's the point of this all if all you can say is "we don't have a chance".

I still had TONSSSS of questions!!!
OH GOD PLEASE  JUST KILL ME NOW :(

I am sorry that I'm kinda mellow-dramatic bitch lately.
You can see it from what I've posted, every quotes, I just need to let go of some feelings that kills me inside. I don't know where to vent my feelings.
I never thought that I would be this weak, yes I'M FUCKIN' WEAK.
Maybe you see me smiling, but it doesn't mean that I'm happy.
Yeah I got a job, my job contains my hobby, It goes really well from the very beginning, but I couldn't help that at some point I feel tired, I had none to whine, I am tired to listen but nobody's listening to mine.

Maybe it's not about trying to fix something that's already broken, maybe it's about to throw all the broken pieces and start to build a new one.
Maybe it's the thing that could not be fixed, and you do have to be willing to let go.

Somedays are too hard for me to live it like nothing really matters.
I pray every night that maybe God is willing to give me things that I wanted most, I asked Him every night, I please Him, because I know that God always listens to His child. Even answer to their questions. Maybe you didn't get it right after you pray, but eventually He will. I know that He got the most amazing plans for His child.

Oh God,
I didn't know what to say. :(