Happy New Year 2016

Hello everyone,
first of all I am wishing you a MERRY CHRISTMAS 2015 & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016!!!
Wish you all had a blast, it's the 1 page of 366 days of 2016.
new year means new spirit, new goals, new beginning, new hope, new chances.

I am thankful enough to live such an amazing life so far, that I had a chance to spend another year, surrounded by loving family & friends.
I am blessed enough to be surrounded by them.
Eventhough there's nothing special (yet) happen, be positive! :)

So last night was one of epic party that I was in.
My first time new year with friends at the club (OH yeahh I hope 2016 makes me less a clubbers).
And before that I was just having a casual dinner at the cafe near my house with my main family :)

As usual I'll tell you what products I've used :
DIOR skin nude air foundation
CHANEL Poudre Universalle Libre Natural Finish Loose Powder
URBAN DECAY NAKED smoky palette eyeshadow
MAYBELLINE gel liner
UNBRANDED lashes (2 stacks)
SILKYGIRL eyebrow pencil
INGLOT blush
NYX illuminating powder
SEPHORA sun disc bronzer
IN2IT lip tint

So I guess I'll see you in the next post! :)
Have a good day everyone..

                                                                            xoxo,

                                                                                              Lia ♥

Remember what keeps you happy

Hello everyone,

sorry for disappearing for a month from this blog..

Kinda busy with works lately, and got time to write up again here on this blog.

I miss my writing, so here I am now at almost 1 a.m typing in front of my lovely laptop listening to Afrojack - Ten Feet Tall, one of my favorite song in current few months.

Well I'll write this blog with few more language, so it will be more "friendly". lol

So, as you could read above,

Remember what keeps you happy.

Really, do you ever remember things that make you happy even in simplest way?

I do (not really I remember everything tho).

But, I just know the moment something makes me smile, I guess I am happy.

Well maybe a little.

For example, when you got a delivery package in front of your doorhouse from a shop, when you bought something online.

It's like "Oh finally *with smile*" nah I did that.

Or maybe when... someone special texted you "Hi."

*BOOM* I know you're smiling that moment. hahahahahaha

Don't count your happiness just when you got something expensive.

Yes I know that everyone lovessss expensive things.

But it is more precious if you got something that had a meaning of it.

For example, oh you got a branded bags because it's your first ever authentic bag that you bought with your own money *your job-money*, not because it's your parents money or bla bla bla.

Pastinya kamu merasa PUAS meski bakal ada pikiran OMG tabunganku berkurang banyak blah blah blah, BUT kamu bakal bener2 jaga itu barang because you know itu hasil kerja kamu sendiri, lain hal kalau pemberian dr ortu, palingan berapa lama uda bosen keleussss. (well happen to me LOL)

I won't count how much I spent to be happy.

In fact, real happiness can't be bought with money right.

Those flowers that blooms inside your heart, in the most simplest way.

Nah I am sorry that I sounds too cheesy lah.

Happiness is when.... you had something that makes you realize that Life is much more beautiful to be happy for, maybe a job you had, bestfriends that you love (and maybe if they love you back), someone that maybe makes you realize that reality is finally much more better than your dreams. Though I haven't met that "someone". LOL

Romantis dikit boleh lah ya :D

Nah, sekarang buntu nih mau ngomong apaan.

Intinya nih ya, bahagia itu simple, saat hati dan pikiran kamu udah "plong" meskipun beban berat masih ada, but you know what you had to do..

Deal with it, life goes on, and you moved on, bukan berarti elu LUPAIN, mau lu hapus foto, mau lu delete contact, yg namanya MEMORY itu STAY FOREVER, mana bisa lupa coy, bisa sih kalo lo ga stuck in one place that had thousand memories and you  moved to another country or maybe another city. Good if you had that chance.

Kecuali kalo lo AMNESIA, baru tuh lu bisa bilang move on, galau? inget masalah lu sebelum amnesia aja boro2 boo. *lol*

Life is much more easier to worry less alias WOLES aja bro,

asal tau mana yg baik dan buruk, and SET YOUR LIMITS!

Udah tua sob, kurang-kurangin nyusahin orang apalagi diri sendiri.

Kurang-kurangin main2, nyakitin hati orang.

Ati-ati deh karma itu ada loh, you got what you've done.

Nah lho bingung kan sama ini kata2, jelasnya aja sih ibaratnya nih ya..

"Kalo lo kasih orang lain tai, suatu saat lu dikasih tai juga sama orang lain.

Kalo lo kasih rezeki ke orang lain, nanti lu juga bakal dapet rezeki juga."

Gitu aja muter terus coy, ga susah-susah amat sih.

Nah kalo lo di jahatin orang, ga usah dibales, emang sih LORO ATI BRO, tapi inget...

nanti juga yg jahatin elu dijahatin sama orang lain, apalagi kalo lu dijahatin sama org yg lu sayang pake bingittt, ntar juga doi dijahatin sama orang yg doi sayang pake bingittt.

Bisa jadi lebih parah (bukan doain sih, but that's exactly what I know for sure, cuz it happened to me once, well maybe twice or more than that. NAH jd curcol kan gueh.)

Makanya lain kali jangan baper, jadi galau kan lo.

And here's one of my fave quote for you guys, and be sure to remember....

"Karma's only a BITCH if YOU ARE."

So that was the end of this post, this was kind of random post I guess.. 

Well maybe I'll post some of my makeup look on the next blog.

Got some endorsements that I like to post on this blog.

Stay tune!!!

thanks for capturing, I am giggling! xD

                                                                            xoxo,

                                                                                              Lia ♥

Heart to heart

Hello everyone,
been few weeks didn't check on my blog, kinda busy with my bro's wedding day last week.
It's kinda unbelievable that he's now a married man. HAHAHA.
Well yeah.. it means that now I am the last one. OH, I still had one left cousin haven't married yet.

It's December already, yeah time flies so fast, and it's almost Christmas.
Well today.. I guess we had a heart-to-heart kind of thing again. After few months didn't get chances to "curhat" kind of thing here. I know that it's not a necessary thing, but here I am, I'm good at writing not talking especially when it's face-to-face. I go blank. I know I had a lot to ask, but seems like I couldn't find the right words to ask. Or maybe I am too afraid to face the truth. Well yeah that's me.
I'd rather keep it to myself than to express what I really felt, and then regret for not asking what I really want to ask.

So here's the thing, let me ask you a question.
I know this is weird. Don't get me wrong.
"Have you ever love someone to the point where you want to kill yourself for loving them too much, but you can't do anything about it, and when you had a chance to tell 'em because they asked, but the answer you got is too heartbreaking. And it stays on your mind, affects your mood, and you don't know what to do next.
And do you ever feel.. it seems like you really win, but the situation won't let you win?"
Okay I know my question is a little bit confusing.
I guess it's just me who can't get over something so fast, like "oh okay, you suck, get lost."
My life is too ironic I guess. I couldn't find any word to describe what I really feel exactly.

At some point, you know that maybe there's a little bit of feelings they left about you, maybe it's love, or maybe hatred towards you. Who knows?
And maybe they really love you, but their actions seems just... not reflecting that they really love you. Because if you really love someone, you didn't destroy the one you love.
MAYBE THEY LOVE YOU, BUT THEY DIDN'T LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO THE POINT WHERE THEY DIDN'T EVEN ONCE TRY TO FIX WHAT THEY BROKE.
Oh yeah, I guess yeah that's the matter..

Still, I had tons of questions that haven't been answered yet.
Can I just lists it below? Well, okay..
1. Why me?
2. Why am I always be the one who got blamed for making a decision that we both know I am not the one who made mistakes?
3. Why she can, but I can't?
4. Is it wrong to be "still" in love with someone I can't have?
5. Give me some proof that if you really love me back then.
6. Why did you force me to say what I don't wanna say in front of you? And then you give me an un-acceptable answer after that.
7.  Why did you still there, when you said that we will never be "us". (if you got what I mean)
8. If you tell me that it's for my own sake that we can never be together, it's my choice if I wanted to stay, and it's my choice too if I wanted to leave. CAN'T YOU SEE THAT after the time pass?
9. No matter how hard I try, and no matter how fuckin' tired I am, I can never erase you from my mind.
10. I know maybe at some point people said that you bring all the negative side for me. But I didn't think so. They maybe just knew the story, but not the one who walked in my shoes.
11. If you really want me to live my own way, forget everything, and get over my feelings, WHY ARE YOU STILL THERE?
12. I exactly know that having another man maybe can help, but I DON'T WANT TO.
I surely know exactly how it feels.
13. Be careful for your words, it hurts me, really. You just can't see it through my face. But I swear it hurts, and maybe if you were me, you'll be in tears.
14. If I already ask you those, what's the point of this all if all you can say is "we don't have a chance".

I still had TONSSSS of questions!!!
OH GOD PLEASE  JUST KILL ME NOW :(

I am sorry that I'm kinda mellow-dramatic bitch lately.
You can see it from what I've posted, every quotes, I just need to let go of some feelings that kills me inside. I don't know where to vent my feelings.
I never thought that I would be this weak, yes I'M FUCKIN' WEAK.
Maybe you see me smiling, but it doesn't mean that I'm happy.
Yeah I got a job, my job contains my hobby, It goes really well from the very beginning, but I couldn't help that at some point I feel tired, I had none to whine, I am tired to listen but nobody's listening to mine.

Maybe it's not about trying to fix something that's already broken, maybe it's about to throw all the broken pieces and start to build a new one.
Maybe it's the thing that could not be fixed, and you do have to be willing to let go.

Somedays are too hard for me to live it like nothing really matters.
I pray every night that maybe God is willing to give me things that I wanted most, I asked Him every night, I please Him, because I know that God always listens to His child. Even answer to their questions. Maybe you didn't get it right after you pray, but eventually He will. I know that He got the most amazing plans for His child.

Oh God,
I didn't know what to say. :(

Moving forward

Hello everyone,
miss me huh? hahaha well sorry for my disappearing for a couple weeks, I'm a little bit busy these few couple weeks, during preparing for my cousin's wedding on this week, it's on September 15. I have to find a dress, fitting, and also starting my new side job as a Make-up artist just so you know. hahaha that's really interesting OMG! I never imagine that I was be able to be a MUA. And uh I was totally forgot that I had a broken heart few couple weeks ago. LOL. Oh yes what keeps me busy, keeps me forget all hose stupid little drama back then. Oh fuck that. haha I live in reality, not in drama. :)

Well today I don't know exactly what I wanna say here, I just wanna share a little quotation for you, for those who want to move forward, not move on okay :)

"Time flies, people change, feelings change, and heart move "forward", not move "on", you know future are meant to be traveled forward, not backwards, set your past as a lesson, that's what makes you a better one in the future, you may miss the old times, but you know that it's more best to keep going rather than having to repeat the same story when you already know how the story would ends." :)

End of story.
hahahahahaha
Well I guess I'd post another make-up courtesy soon!
Till we met again :-*

                                                                                          xoxo,

                                                                                                        Lia.

Tearful year.

 
 

Hello everyone,
well first I wanna say Happy Eid Mubarak to those who celebrate it.
Sorry for my disappearing again since the last post.
And I am so sorry if I blogged any crap here in my own blog, oh well told ya, shit happen, as always. OH sh*t, I really2 f*cked up this time, no jokes.
It's happening again, as what I've been through last year. I just know that 8 was my lucky number *I guess*, but really, August isn't my month even it's 8! Flashback to what happen last year if some of you understand my story.

It's kinda fucked up isn't, when you love someone, deep in your heart, you want to be with him, NO MATTER WHAT. But what would you do if that someone doesn't intended to stay? And choose that one who've been screwed you in past a year back then! *Imagine you were me and said in your mind, "what the f*ck!?".* Oh oh, told ya, SHIT HAPPENS. haha..

It's so heartbreaking right, the one who told you that they love you, suddenly leave, and tell you to find another man, who's better than him, wishing you had a good life. Oh well well.. No words I can say could change anything. You know what it feels like when the one you love the most say that thing? It's like I was punched, straight in my face. Oh okay, well maybe that was the last time you'll ever see me smiling like it's okay, and I'll get over it.
Oh you know, I'm not that kind of smiley face mode ON or OFF. 
Told ya, my dad who's never asked me "are you not in the mood?" suddenly asked me that question today, then I tell him "nothing, just tired." 
Oh world's full of lie.

I know it's my fault, oh I didn't regret everything that's happened back then, maybe I just know before this happen, well actually my head knows sooner or later this will happen, but my heart still can't accept it yet. Oh screw me, I just hoping the impossible thing will be possible if I have faith on it. Well I guess I'm wrong. :)
"I know that someone came into our life to teach you lessons, well God let that person crossed our path just to teach you the lesson you have to learn." 
It's either to let go, or to stay with them for the rest of our lives. OH I really wish the reason is to stay for the rest of my life. But I guess God didn't have the same idea with me. haha.. You know, I only had one wish, I only want once in a lifetime boyfriend will be my once in a lifetime husband, now it's all gone. I can't fulfill my lifetime wishes. Pity me. haha I'm a daydreamer, I dream of the thing that not everyone can do it.

Someone told me, "heads up girl, you're precious, he's dumb enough to let a girl like you go from his life. Cheer up! Be happy! Oh please, don't get hurt more.."
Well that someone just one of my friend that I met at beauty course. Not gonna tell her name, but it means a lot for me, remembering that she didn't know me well enough and long enough to understand that something's not okay with me. Thankyou, at least there's someone who care.

Two days back then, I asked God,
"Why me?"
"Why this is happened to me?"
"Why again?"
Still, I didn't get an answers. Not yet.
He's my first, even when he said that he might be my first boyfriend, but not my first love.
I still count him as my first love. I know this wasn't my first heartbreak, I had many okay.
But I don't know why, I just couldn't let him go.
I asked myself "Why?" I didn't get any answer either.
My mind told me to let go, but my heart couldn't.
I told myself, "If we both really meant to be together, no matter how long, how far, how hard it is, you will always find a way to be together, no matter what. Let them go, if he's coming back to you, he's yours. Good things happen to those who patiently wait. Maybe we're not meant to be together today, but someday, we will."

I keep reminding myself to not to look back, I packed all the stuffs, pictures, and everything. I told myself, let the memories remain just as memories, you have to move forward, show him that he's wrong, that he should've try, because I know I was worth the fight.
OH I wish forgetting people is as easier as deleting photos from i-phone!! :(
No words can exactly describes my feelings for now.

OH God, I thankful enough I had one friend, not just a friend, she's my best friend, my sister, my partner in crime, she knows me from the beginning to the end of story. She accompanied me when I need someone the most. She cheer me up. I'm glad to have her. Thankyou Gab for always stay by my side when everyone else's leave. Thanks for understanding me, thanks for handling me in my hard times. It's good enough to have one friend that knows you than having a tons of friend but none of them understand you.
I really wish this pain will gone really soon.
And I'll be okay, someday, just not today. :(



I thank God that I am be able to meet someone as good as you are, be able to spent almost a year knowing each other, I learned a lot from you, thank you for almost everything even if it's good or bad. I just wish you had a great life, take care of yourself, and learn to be more mature from now. Good luck for your job, just so you know that my prayer always be with you, no matter what happen. God always be with you. :')


"Ich liebe dich mehr als du weißt.
 Ich hoffe, dass wir eines Tages wieder zusammen sein."

 The last big hug :)

                                                                             xoxo,

                                                                                              Lia.

Heart to heart

Hello everyone,
so long didn't check on my blog,
Kinda busy with my schedule *cough* hahaha..
Oh really, I spend my June with full-time course, I am now attending a morning class and afternoon class.
Well yeah, it's kind of a distraction for me, I think..
A distraction from my super-complicated-love-life, I don't have to tell you again okay? (If you didn't know or understand, well please read my previous blog on May, you'll get the answer.)
Okay this time I'll use two language, English and Indonesian.
I'm a little bit tired to type it all in English. Well, I just need some time to share, I am overloaded with so many things and problems.

To be honest, until now I'm still in confusions.
Oh when it comes to a heart matters, I think no one ever really know about how I really feel, how I try to be strong, what I was thinking, and the time when I know something that really kills me inside but have to try to look okay and used to it. Trust me, that time, I really want to kick someone in the ass and release all of my anger, but I just can hold it, it sucks right. Yeah I know, sometime silence is the best answer, because not everyone could really understand your words.
Remember this quote?

"If you can't understand my silence, how can you understand my words?"

Yeah, you know someone really hurt when they starts to ignore you. But, pity me. Even if I get hurt, I still can't ignore the one I loved. Tell me I'm stupid, but I never feel stupid for loving someone. If you feel stupid, then you don't really love them. Simple right?

I believe that IF I patient enough to wait, good things will happen. I didn't said that I have to wait until forever, 'cus for me "forever" doesn't exist. I only remind myself that God will definitely guides me, I know his plan is much more better than mine.
 I keep re-read this quote,
"The ones who love you will never leave you, because even if there are hundred reasons to give up, they will find one reason to hold on."

I believe that if he really loves me and wants me, he will not easily give up on me, like I don't want to give up on him. I know we still had a chance to be together. Well maybe not right now, but someday, we will. I know expecting too much can hurt so much, but how can I give up on someone that I can't go a day without thinking about? Ever heard, "don't give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about" ?

Well, some said to move on, some said to hold on, some said that I am too stupid to wait for something that I don't even know how it ends, hello... I know lah kalo nasib digantung itu ga enak, bukan cuma ga enak, tapi pake banget. But, what can I do?  Lemme tell you, segala sesuatu yang dipaksain itu ga pernah berjalan mulus. Why I can say that thing? 'Cus, I've been through a lot of things in couple months. To be honest yaa.. Kadang capek. Capek makan ati. hahaha * bahasa alay mode on*

Kadang mikir, kok sekarang jalannya susah, rumit, too complicated, too much drama, bla bla bla... but then, I've read a book  that tells me this,
"kalau sekarang jalannya susah, banyak rintangan, banyak halangan, bukan berarti kalian ga berjodoh, cobaan itu yang menguji kamu, seberapa sabar,  seberapa besar perjuangan, dan seberapa kuat kemauan kamu untuk bersama dengan seseorang itu."

A real relationship needs two people who fights, who trust and believe in each other, and two people who really wants to be together.
Fight for what you love, but you can't be the only one who fights right?
Oh why complicated life....
God, if we are really meant to be together, please lead us to the right directions..
AMEN.

As my only one distraction, now I am finished my basic makeup course, now I'm in personal! YAY~ I'm in a rush to Bridal course, well I think I'm going to have a basic makeup test in few weeks ahead. Wish me luck guys! *finger crossed*

I've wrote this blog cuma buat mengurangi beban pikiran, no offense okay? I told ya before kan, aku bukan tipikal orang yang gampang ngomong straight to the point ke orangnya apalagi kalo masalah hati gini *HAHAHA*, so I choose to write it on my own blog and hoping that someone would read, yeah I'm big on writing! :p

Well I think that's enough for now,
I'm a little bit tired and sleepy, you know what? For a couple weeks back then, I've sleep before 12 am! miracle happens HAHAHA, you know that I'm an insomniac. *duh*
Seeyou guys in the bext blog post SOON...

                                                                                                      xoxo,

                                                                                                              Lia ♥

Heart to heart

Hello everyone,
It's been a while since I had a "heart-to-heart" kind of post here right?
Hahahaha.. So today I'm here with this old kind of topic.
Well, you might know without I had to explain, it's always about love, heartbreak, disappointments, etc.
Yeah I know, life is never get easy right.
When you want something, you've got to try your best to get it, and when you already got it, you've got to try your best to keep it.

DUH, I wish I could just let go of my anger, you don't really understand how painful it is to see, to feel, to love, and to hold on to someone who barely don't know how you really feel, so am I. I don't really know what you're really think about me, how you really feel about me, how much you love me.
It's just like.... hold on to something that we don't know where they lead.

There's a time when I feel all tired, lose hope, and kinda think why don't you kill me instead of giving me this unbearably kind of pain?
There's a time I asked my self, "why?"
There's a time I said to my self, "It doesn't matter if I die tomorrow, I have nothing to worried about, nor consider about."
There's a time I said to people, "I don't even need anyone to be married, as long as I live happily, because you know what? If you love, love just make us a weak person, you breakdown, your heart breaks, and DUH.. all you can do is just seeing old pictures, listen to the old records, laugh because you remember how great your life back then, and how fucked up your life by now."

I told myself to let go, but I couldn't. 
It's just.. there's something about him I can't let go. You think it's easy to move on, but it's NOT!

Yeah I really did, I always look into pictures, and remember how happy we are back then, how I wish you're still by my side, you're still holding me.
I listen to the old voicenotes, just to make me feel a little more better to hear your voice before I go to sleep, and told ya the truth, I fell asleep right after I listened to your voices through our old voicenotes.
Go on, laugh a little harder. Hahaha pity me.
Still had the bear in my bed, and sleeping right next to me, seriously.
Damn, I think I'm going crazy soon, wtf.

Well you can say that I'm the girl who can't be moved. LOL
I barely asked myself why can't I just move on, just like few years ago, when I really had my very first heartbreak. hahaha.. remember my old blog in 2009 or 2010?
Oh old times, honestly I don't really care about it anymore.

Time flies, season changes, how about feelings?
In life, I learned that everything worth having doesn't come easy. Those thing that come easily, it eventually easy to go too. Don't rush into something. If it was meant to be, it will be, in the right time, in the right place, with the right persons. If someone wants to go from you, let them, if they're came back, they're yours.

Few days ago, I found this little quotation,

"You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy, even if you're not part of their happiness." —Julia Roberts

Agree or not? Well, I do agree.
Why forcing someone to be with you if they're not really want to stay with you?
Let them go, I know it's not that easy to let go of someone that means everything to you, but don't you think it is too selfish to force them to be with us. I know, change takes a little time.

I told you, I am a selfish kind of person, I'm impatient, I am temperamental, in my head..I've killed my enemies & those people I hate over and over again, I am an evil, I am cold-blooded, I am stone-hearted, etcetera..

I'm just a girl, I can only wait okay?
Well I know I messed up, I fucked up, I am mentally breakdown, but one thing I know for sure, I grow up, I learned from my mistakes, I try my best, I know the limits, and I accepted reality.

GROW UP YOUNG LADIES,
LIVE YOUR LIFE WITH LESS DRAMA,
LIFE IS NOT A MOVIE.


Well, the last but not least, I tend to hold on to this quote I made,

"Being happy is your own choice, not others."

So, just stop following what's people manage you to do instead do what your heart said, you know what you want, don't base your decisions off the advice of people who don't have to live with the results.

I guess that's the end of this "heart-to-heart" post.
I'll seeyou later guys! :)

 

                                                                                                               xoxo,

Lia ♥

My First Experience

Hello everyone, 

so yesterday I got a "teaser" make-up job at Tunjungan Plaza, it's Surabaya Fashion Parade (SFP).

My first client name is Laura. :D

And just so you know, this was my very first experience everrrrrr, OMG

I am so nervous yesterday, but gladly my client is a kind & calm person, and also her model, Ratna. :)

OH thank God, it turns out okay & kinda nice,

eventhough there's a lot of MUA works there.

So here's the pictures of Laura & Ratna.

Go on take a look!

 

Ratna

Sorry for the bad lighting, it's in the parking lot *wtf*
Well I kinda love this girl, she's sweet, and kind :D
Thanks a bunch Ce Laura for trusting me to do the make-up!
Waiting for the photoshoot soon :)

xoxo,

Lia  

Life is all about Learning

Hello everyone, 
I write this blog with intention and earnest (don't ever think that I have no intention at my other blog post), maybe my blogpost this time isn't like any other topic..
These days, many thing's running in my mind, whether it's a matter of life, friends, and even love life.. Well, there's no end when it comes the matter about life and love, considering all the people need "love", even the most ignorant and heartless need it.

I learned .. that not everything you want can be yours, it takes effort and hard work to have it, not everyone can think as how you think, not everyone see things in the same way you did, and not everyone can feel what you feel if they have never experienced what you have experienced.

For example, you want to know someone, but because you are afraid or shy, in the end you are discouraged to get acquainted with that person, from here..we can see that you aren't trying to let go of the fear/shame in you, as long as you don't try to let go of it, you will never move forward. I know, everyone is afraid of being rejected, but at least you can prove that you have been trying, for the next step... just pray for the best :p
 
I learned .. that in life, you're required to be clever in choosing a trusted friend, good at choosing a true friends, you have to be more smart, and good at everything .. I can't explain the meaning of "everything", like what I said earlier, not because I'm lazy to type it, because everyone has a different perspective about this "smart" word..

Example: when you vent to a friend, suddenly all the other friends they know but the story could be different from what you're describing .. Well, that's what they shouldn't disseminate, we told them because we're no longer can keep the problem itself, we need a good listener and who can provide us solutions, not make our problems as a gossip. Right people? :)

I learned .. that in life you do not always just "accept" it, but you are also required to learn to "give", because we needs some balance for a successful relationship, whether it's friendship or dating.

I learned .. that loving someone needed sacrifices and a strong heart, why? when you dare to fell in love, you dare to feel the pain and sick, I don't mean physically, but spiritually. (please ignore my language, I'm such a psychologist LOL!!, I was obsessed with psychology since senior high. hahaha) 
Pain that you feel is like a jealousy, resentment, anger, being more emotional, and the language that is the trend now is "galau "or"miris". hahaha ..

You need an example? Well here is an example, say that your partner whether she/he has an EX-bf/gf, unbeknownst to you they met (intentional/unintentional), but they don't tell you, either because they're afraid you'd be angry, or they had another reasons, no one knows in addition to his/her own.

The problem isn't that big on the first place, YEAH even though we are annoyed, at least we know from you, not from anyone else, right? The matter is actually the "honesty". Yes we admit that as a woman, we demand our partner to be honest with us, we better hear it from them than we have to heard it from the mouths of the others, as you remember this phrase, "It's better telling the truth and make them sad rather than telling lies and makes them happy."
Yes I don't know for sure the correct sentence was like, the important thing is that you all the readers know what I mean right? #hahahaha

I learned .. when you truly love someone, no matter how much he hurts you, you can say you hate them, but deep down inside your heart, you can never hate them. There was just a sense of "angry", not "hate". Verily, you can never hate the person you love, even if sometimes they don't deserve it, you easily forgive them because you still want them in your life.

 I learned .. when you feel hatred towards anyone, no matter what they are doing well or not, everything looks wrong in your eyes. That's the law, you won't hate someone for no reason isn't it? Just think, what makes you hate that person?

I learned .. to be more patient in this cruel life, no one ever said that life is easy, but if you believe the impossible can become possible.. Try to be more tough in living every problem of your life. In this world, there are still many people who suffer more than you, so be thankful.

I learned .. to be a good listener, sometimes people need a good listener figures, they don't want an answer, they just need a friend to share their story, not the people who always criticize and judge.

I learned .. to be the best, not in the sense of "to be", I never said I was the best .. I'm just doing the best I can do and the best I can give..

I learned .. to become a person who is open-minded, in the sense that can express what is in my mind, and also someone who can look in any widespread problems.

I learned .. to be someone who is not a hypocrite, you can see, if I don't like someone, I won't pretend to like them. I don't say much, just be a good listener.

I learned .. to be able to accept the situation, as time goes by and being older and older each year, we are all faced with "problems", even children who are still young, they're having a trouble too, basically people have problems since they're still a kiddo, just being older and older our problems are also become more severe, have patience & be strong.

I learned .. that to have a happy life is not complicated, do what you think is right, do whatever makes you happy, be with people who supported the you, be with those who make you happy, ignore those who want to bring you down, life is too short to worry about what people's negative thoughts, well.. sorry haters, I don't give a f*ck, you know haters gonna hate. :)


I know, it's not easy being a perfect figure, because you know.. no one is perfect, it isn't easy to be patience in facing the problem, but everything will be okay in the end..

"Those who patient enough will always gets the rights, as God sees, and acts, believe that you deserve to be happy, so.. don't give up!" :) 

Well I think this is the end of this un-usual post today, I'll see ya on the next post y'all! 

 xoxo,