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                                                                                        Lia ♥

Moving forward

Hello everyone,
miss me huh? hahaha well sorry for my disappearing for a couple weeks, I'm a little bit busy these few couple weeks, during preparing for my cousin's wedding on this week, it's on September 15. I have to find a dress, fitting, and also starting my new side job as a Make-up artist just so you know. hahaha that's really interesting OMG! I never imagine that I was be able to be a MUA. And uh I was totally forgot that I had a broken heart few couple weeks ago. LOL. Oh yes what keeps me busy, keeps me forget all hose stupid little drama back then. Oh fuck that. haha I live in reality, not in drama. :)

Well today I don't know exactly what I wanna say here, I just wanna share a little quotation for you, for those who want to move forward, not move on okay :)

"Time flies, people change, feelings change, and heart move "forward", not move "on", you know future are meant to be traveled forward, not backwards, set your past as a lesson, that's what makes you a better one in the future, you may miss the old times, but you know that it's more best to keep going rather than having to repeat the same story when you already know how the story would ends." :)

End of story.
hahahahahaha
Well I guess I'd post another make-up courtesy soon!
Till we met again :-*

                                                                                          xoxo,

                                                                                                        Lia.

Too old for drama

Hello everyone, 
well first of all sorry for the chit-chat thingy here..
Oh I'd like to use a little bit Indonesian too this time.
So, yeah.. I'm back into my blog today, cus banyak banget uneg-uneg yang ada di otakku sekarang. you know for the past couple months having a cat fight oh whatever you wanna say, this person really really annoys me so much. Oh really!

Aku ga pernah mau tahu urusanmu, mau kamu hidup kek, mati kek, apapun yg ada hubungannya sama kamu, I DON'T EVEN CARE okay. SO why you keep bothering me so much. Especially the harsh words you used, hellooo, pendidikan tinggi, tapi etika & tutur kata kok sama sekali ga sepadan sama education'nya sih? Itu mulut apa sampah haha *sorry*

Well, sorry for whining a lot in here guys, I just need to express what I felt, people get tired okay, tired to act like everything is fine, everything is under control, oh whatever. YOU said that you "set him free" ? OH REALLY? HAHAHA!! well I don't have to say anything, but just make sure that your words are 100% TRUE.

Remember what YOU SAID last year, if you don't please just SEE YOUR POST ON FACEBOOK, you said that you never want to destroy someone relationship especially your ex, BUT WHAT?! HAHAHAHA. Such a hypocrite.. So, if you're now reading this, what you wanna do? MAU NGELAPOR LAGI? hahaha udah gede masi suka laporan, anak SD ya? hahahaha.. But I don't really care, you already messed up with me & my life. So I wish KARMA hit you straight on your face REALLY SOON.

You said that I "WANT" him? Yeah, I want him. I want him to be in my life, I want him for the rest of my life. Is that wrong? I don't think so. I didn't "WANT" him for any reasons. Or maybe you are the one who "WANT" him for reasons?  No offense dude. And just to make it straight, I never forced him to be with me, or choose me instead of you, I already told him that HE'S FREE TO CHOOSE okay. And I accept the fact that he chooses you. SO WHAT'S THE MATTER NOW?! I don't even care about you, and all the things between you two. So get losttttt!!

And just to let you know, I am now OKAY, I'm fine, I'm happy, and I enjoyed my life as much as I can, just like before I met him okay. So please yaa ga usah bandingin rasa sakit yg pernah kamu alamin, perjuangan kamu, atau apapun. Cus, rasa sakit kita itu beda, cara berjuang kita juga beda, pengorbanan kita juga beda. Aku bukan ingin hitung2an disini, cuma ngelurusin aja, KALO KITA GAK SAMA dan GA AKAN PERNAH SAMA. Mungkin kesamaan kita itu cuma "pengen" sama orang yang sama, tapi kata pengen kita itu BEDA. Entah kamu ada maksud ato ngga, who knows? :)

Dan kalo emang kamu ngebebasin dia dari dulu, ga akan kamu ikut campur dalam semua hal, pake cara apapun biar dia ga bisa berkutik, mau ga mau dia harus pilih kamu. Well well, kalo aku ngelakuin hal seperti itu, itu cuma buat aku malu sendiri. hahaha.. Please, before you say something, pikir dulu.
You can tell people what I've done, but don't forget to tell them what you've done TOO!
Cukup tau aja kokkk.
And the last, I told you,
I am too old for all your fuckin' drama, and too young to give a fuck.

Karma's only a BITCH if   Y O U  are. :)

Oh okay then,
sorry guys, I think I'll see you later in the next interesting blog..

                                                                                                    xoxo,
                                                                                                     Lia.

Here's to the past

Hello everyone,
so I'm back again with a little bit mood change *hahaha*
Well you know that I've been through a hard time in past a year back then.
Not exactly a year though, it's 11 months, and next month is exactly one year after those break up situation where I've spent last year drinking some beers with my bff's.
Oh I thank you for your supports guys, I 'm glad to have you all.

Despite of it, well.. I find it hard to move on, oh okay to be honest.. I already said that he was my first ever boyfriend. I guess you know how hard is it when it comes about "the first" right?
And as I remember one of my friend told me, you'll never forget "the first time" you do something, no matter what, you'll never forget it.
Oh I know I know, it sounds too much.. I get it. hahaha..
Oh first of all, sorry if I use an Indonesian a bit here, well it's easier to tell you with Indonesian, remembering that not everyone is fluent with English.

I know, semua orang pasti "pernah" memliki cerita sendiri, whether it's about first boyfriend, first love, oh whatever. And finally, I understand how it feels like when you really love someone, and that someone doesn't appreciate your love. I don't know exactly but aku rasa memang tidak pernah dihargai. hahaha sorry to be honest. And now, I am so grateful, why? I finally can let go of my past, even it hurts me, A LOT more that you think. hahaha *sounds too dramatic*
Aku belajar kalau kamu ingin membuang masa lalumu, tidaklah susah, seperti apa yang aku alami kemarin, itu kesalahan. Yah kita semua belajar dari kesalahan kan? Kalau tidak, kamu tidak akan bisa menjadi orang yang lebih baik untuk kedepannya.

Well, the first step that I did is.. simpan jauh-jauh semua foto, meski hanya sebuah foto, tapi hal itu yang membuatmu berat untuk melepaskan. *DUH, sorry bahasaku agak GAK banget kyknya ya hahaha*
And please, delete all photos even from your blackberry, iphone, nor your wallet, and don't forget simpan jauh-jauh, dimana kamu bakal jarang liat semua itu. Kalo nyimpan di laptop, yah simpan di folder yang ga bakal pernah kamu buka sama sekali meskipun tiap hari laptop selalu kamu utak-atik. haha :)

The second step is hmm.. delete his number from your contacts. Don't even read the old texts, or whatever. And if he's on your LINE contact, just hide it. So you wouldn't see their names on your contact list, see their updates, or see their "wtf" pictures. hahaha..

Oh well, I didn't tell to "unfriend" them on facebook or whatever social media names, but seems like they're deleting me. Oh it's okay, really. It's better you who deleted me than I deleted you, it's like umm it bothering you if you see my name while you opened your facebook page. lol

And the third thing is.. simpan semua barang yang bisa ingetin kamu sama doi, hahaha.. Yeah I find it hard when I still hugging the bear that he gaves to me, so I manage to keep it far away from me, even it's my favorite kind of bear. Oh well skip that thing.

The fourth is you need a distraction! I find it more easier, oh well my distraction is getting a new piercing, (as seen on my instagram if you followed me). haha I know that's not a good thing, but yeah I love piercing. Every piercing that I had told a different stories. And just to make it clear ya, ga semua orang bertindik itu ga baik. Cuma orang kolot aja yang mikir seperti itu. hellooo ini bukan tahun 80'an, ini 2013. PLEASE... :)

The last thing thing is.. you have to tell yourself that you're gonna be okay without him, you'll be happy even without him, you deserve better, you've done a lot, you are precious, and NEVER COMPARE YOURSELF with ANYONE, apalagi orang yang ga ada baiknya, aku tau judging people who you doesn't even know is a bad habit, but for me, aku ga bisa dibandingin sama orang kyk gitu (yah cukup yang tau aja ngerti kok), dan jangan sekalipun kamu berani bandingin, because she's not even close to my level, SO STOP loving someone who doesn't even appreciate your love. It's like you're throwing a diamond while you're picking up the rocks. :)

That's all I've did. And lucky me, he's not around anymore, well at least until the next couple months, or year? haha good. I didn't regret everything in my past, they're there to give you lessons in life. I believe that I'll go through all of this shit very soon. Yang sekarang ada di pikiranku adalah aku harus menata hidupku seperti sedia kala, the life that I had before I meet him, but then aku ga akan bisa 100% jadi orang yang sama seperti dulu, but at least be a better me, the smart one, lia yang tau mana yang baik & buruk, well leaving the bad habit like going to club, partying, oh whatever. Lia yang dulu sudah ga ada. It's like umm.. The old me is already gone, and dead. ok? :)

You can't please society, really, you only need to keep struggle to live the world full of lies, full of hypocrites, and full of bitches. haha make sure you're not one of them :)

Oh well, aku kira kata-kataku diatas sudah cukup untuk blog kali ini..
No offense. This is my blog, I wrote whatever I like. :)
I'll see ya in the next post soon!

                                                                                      xoxo,

                                                                                                       Lia.

Flawless Skin

Hello everyone,
so today I want to blog about SKIN :D
Well I didn't said that I'm an expert about all of SKIN stuffs.. oh whatever.

Having a flawless skin is not easy ladies, there are several kind of skin, which are oily, normal, combination, and dry skin. Good if you had a normal skin, I'm combination, which mean is dry and oily, but not too oily though.
I'd like to use BB cream instead of cream or liquid foundation, idk, but seems like BB cream is lightly textured than the cream foundie. I use maybelline BB cream in fresh, because the natural one is too yellow for my skin tone. Same as Chanel CC cream that I tried today, too bad it didn't suit my skin tone.

The key of having a great makeup is having a good skin, hell yeah flawless skin. I'd die for having a flawless skin!! I didn't said that my skin is flawless, I got some pimples sometimes, a little wrinkles on the forehead, and redness, Yeah no one is having that flawless skin FYI. So be thankful if you're acne's free! :)

I only get facial once in few months, I wash my face only with facial soap, I didn't use any skincare lately, but I've been using Shiseido last time. Well, I prefer using Ultima than shiseido. Idk, their skincare didn't work on me. So I think that I would get my old skincare back soon.



I would like to share some picture of mine below, I've been using BB cream since 2010 (if I'm not wrong), and Maybelline is my first choice to experience with. Some of my makeup were from Maybelline. I LOVE THEM even it's only drugstores makeup.

Cheap or expensive makeup? 
WHO CARES? 
Even if you use a lot of expensive makeup BUT you don't understand or know how to use it, IT'S USELESS AND WASTE OF MONEY! :)

So, the point is, you have to know and understand before you buy makeup products if you never had an experience before. Drug store makeup is not that bad. :)

So, here's some picture of me, of course with makeup on.. just so you know, I LOVE MY EYEBROWS THAT DAY! #LOLOLOLL :D

 Likey my new "comme des fuckdown" caps? ;)

Please ignore puffy and panda eyes :(

 do I look like korean here? :p

Well that's enough :p
Sorry for spamming your screen with super adorable and cute pictures of mine
LOLOLOLL!!

Seeya in the next blog! ♥

                                                                         xoxo,

                                                                                      Lia ♥

Heart to heart

Hello everyone,
so long didn't check on my blog,
Kinda busy with my schedule *cough* hahaha..
Oh really, I spend my June with full-time course, I am now attending a morning class and afternoon class.
Well yeah, it's kind of a distraction for me, I think..
A distraction from my super-complicated-love-life, I don't have to tell you again okay? (If you didn't know or understand, well please read my previous blog on May, you'll get the answer.)
Okay this time I'll use two language, English and Indonesian.
I'm a little bit tired to type it all in English. Well, I just need some time to share, I am overloaded with so many things and problems.

To be honest, until now I'm still in confusions.
Oh when it comes to a heart matters, I think no one ever really know about how I really feel, how I try to be strong, what I was thinking, and the time when I know something that really kills me inside but have to try to look okay and used to it. Trust me, that time, I really want to kick someone in the ass and release all of my anger, but I just can hold it, it sucks right. Yeah I know, sometime silence is the best answer, because not everyone could really understand your words.
Remember this quote?

"If you can't understand my silence, how can you understand my words?"

Yeah, you know someone really hurt when they starts to ignore you. But, pity me. Even if I get hurt, I still can't ignore the one I loved. Tell me I'm stupid, but I never feel stupid for loving someone. If you feel stupid, then you don't really love them. Simple right?

I believe that IF I patient enough to wait, good things will happen. I didn't said that I have to wait until forever, 'cus for me "forever" doesn't exist. I only remind myself that God will definitely guides me, I know his plan is much more better than mine.
 I keep re-read this quote,
"The ones who love you will never leave you, because even if there are hundred reasons to give up, they will find one reason to hold on."

I believe that if he really loves me and wants me, he will not easily give up on me, like I don't want to give up on him. I know we still had a chance to be together. Well maybe not right now, but someday, we will. I know expecting too much can hurt so much, but how can I give up on someone that I can't go a day without thinking about? Ever heard, "don't give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about" ?

Well, some said to move on, some said to hold on, some said that I am too stupid to wait for something that I don't even know how it ends, hello... I know lah kalo nasib digantung itu ga enak, bukan cuma ga enak, tapi pake banget. But, what can I do?  Lemme tell you, segala sesuatu yang dipaksain itu ga pernah berjalan mulus. Why I can say that thing? 'Cus, I've been through a lot of things in couple months. To be honest yaa.. Kadang capek. Capek makan ati. hahaha * bahasa alay mode on*

Kadang mikir, kok sekarang jalannya susah, rumit, too complicated, too much drama, bla bla bla... but then, I've read a book  that tells me this,
"kalau sekarang jalannya susah, banyak rintangan, banyak halangan, bukan berarti kalian ga berjodoh, cobaan itu yang menguji kamu, seberapa sabar,  seberapa besar perjuangan, dan seberapa kuat kemauan kamu untuk bersama dengan seseorang itu."

A real relationship needs two people who fights, who trust and believe in each other, and two people who really wants to be together.
Fight for what you love, but you can't be the only one who fights right?
Oh why complicated life....
God, if we are really meant to be together, please lead us to the right directions..
AMEN.

As my only one distraction, now I am finished my basic makeup course, now I'm in personal! YAY~ I'm in a rush to Bridal course, well I think I'm going to have a basic makeup test in few weeks ahead. Wish me luck guys! *finger crossed*

I've wrote this blog cuma buat mengurangi beban pikiran, no offense okay? I told ya before kan, aku bukan tipikal orang yang gampang ngomong straight to the point ke orangnya apalagi kalo masalah hati gini *HAHAHA*, so I choose to write it on my own blog and hoping that someone would read, yeah I'm big on writing! :p

Well I think that's enough for now,
I'm a little bit tired and sleepy, you know what? For a couple weeks back then, I've sleep before 12 am! miracle happens HAHAHA, you know that I'm an insomniac. *duh*
Seeyou guys in the bext blog post SOON...

                                                                                                      xoxo,

                                                                                                              Lia ♥

Make-up courtesy

Hello everyone,
How's your day? Hope you're all doing well!
Uhm yeah.. so today I feel so much better than last time I blogged "heart-to-heart", sorry I couldn't help but writing is just like my own painkiller sometimes. Idk why, no special excuse anyway.

Not too important, but well I brought you some pictures of my make-up courtesy today, as I began a beauty & make-up class in March back then, I didn't blogged any of it until now. hehe forgive me, but trust me I wanted to, but kinda busy with my personal life. You know what I've been talking about if you read my previous blog OK? :)

So I don't need to say much, here's the pictures from the first time I started my course, go on take a look! :D

 

 1st (thanks a bunch Linda!) :-*

 

2nd (thanks a bunch Nyu!) :-*

3rd (thanks a bunch Inneke!) :-*

4th (thanks a bunch Sela!) :-*

5th

6th (thanks a bunch winda!) :-*

7th (thanks a bunch Sasa!) :-*

8th (thanks a bunch my cousin, ce melly!) :-*

9th (thanks a bunch again Linda!)

10th

11th

 12th (part 1)

12th (part 2)

13th

14th

15th

16th

17th

 18th

 

 

 

19th

20th

 

 

21th

22th

23th

 

24th

Still continue :D
Ah time flies really, it's already 24 times doing makeup, plus on job 1 time, check my previous blog here.
And next I've got my basic exam soon! OMG, personal too maybe. Wish me all the best guys :)

Well I guess that's enough for now,
I'll see you guys on the next blogpost
SOON! :p

                                                                                         xoxo,

                                                                                                               Lia ♥