Less is more.

Hello everyone,

as I promised you, today I would tell you the products that I've used in this pic below.

I don't say that I recommend all of the products below for you to use, it's back to your own skin type, which is different from mine & anyone else.

Okay let's get started! :)

PRODUCTS USED :

DIOR SKIN NUDE AIR foundation #010

CHANEL poudre universelle libre (loose powder) 20 Claire

MAYBELLINE instant age rewind concealer in FAIR LIGHT #110

ANASTASIA BEVERLY HILLS dipbrow pomade in TAUPE & DARK BROWN

ANASTASIA BEVERLY HILLS illuminator in SO HOLLYWOOD

COLOURPOP Ultra Matte Lip in SOLLOW

SEPHORA Sol de Rio bronzer #2

INGLOT blusher

MAYBELLINE gel liner in BLACK

LASHES unbranded

URBAN DECAY SMOKY palette eyeshadow

URBAN DECAY b6 vitamin infused complexion prep spray

I got to admit that I love the DIOR skin nude air foundation and I personally recommend if you like foundation that it's not too thick but covers!

I know I had, well you can say 95% flawless skin, but I need coverage, especially in the eye area.

The dior's skin nude air foundie is one of my fave for now, it smells really good too.

It costs about $191 MYR, well.. about 600.000 rupiahs I guess.

But it's worth it! I've been looking for baby glow by Guerlain in shade Clair, but it's all sold out, been looking here and there. I will look out for it in my next trip tomorrow. :(

And also I recommend colourpop ultra matte lip, been looking for a waterproof lipstick all this time, and finally GOT IT!!! :D

It's lasts for more than 6 hours (I guess), been eating, drinking, and it stay locked in my lips.

Okay a little scary for lipstick, but worth to try tho especially if you're in party & don't have to bring a lipstick.

I guess I need it for my clients since they've always ask whether the lipstick is last or not.

So I guess this will be my last post for this month.

Going to holiday to China (and around) till Nov'7.

Ad will be celebrating my 23rd birthday there too (gotta admit that I'm a little bit sad tho).

Well.... happy holiday folks!!

Seeyou next month..

                                                                            xoxo,

                                                                                              Lia ♥

The struggle between life, love, friendship, and works.

Hello everyone,
long time have no chit-chat with you guys, especially in my blog.
Too busy with works that I have no time to open up my laptop and typing in front of it, so today I find myself a little bit.. weird. Well weird.
Not because something bad happen actually, just a sudden NOT-permanent feeling I guess.
Life is good lately, well not all good, but.. it's fine.
Well I'm gonna share today with you guys about the struggle between love life and works lately, well.. my struggle to be exact. Gonna share it with a little bit english and indonesian language so it will be easier for me to say, remembering that I couldn't remember every words on vocabulary right. HAHA :)

So.. where do I start?
I guess I'm gonna start with my life in the earlier stage, how's my family, and how's society makes me who I am today (not trying to be dramatic FYI).

Okay, so I was born in the middle of a small loving family which contains 5 people including me, my mom and dad who still married and loving each other through their ups and down, and my two elder brothers which is 10 and 4 years older than me, And they both already married now, so let's say I'm the last one standing *ehh*.
My childhood is kind of normal actually, but what made it special is that I never live a miserable life like my older brother who already share the ups and down with my parents, from 5 to zero (not 10 yet), I mean bankrupt. Yes. You don't misspelling. So I guess I'm kinda lucky at the year of 1992.

The former story actually is that my mom didn't plan to had another child after my second brother was born, because she afraid to get another BOY during pregnancy. So, she tooks a herbal medicine to slowly err... abort (read: abortion). Well she didn't check for the gender yet remembering that she was 3 months pregnant, and then my grandma (from my mom's side) tell her NOT TO EAT another herbal medicine and made her check up on my condition.

And OH luckily the doctor said that I'm okay and in a good condition so she doesn't need to worry that I might be born with disabilities. And how happy she is when I was born a GIRL hahahaha. I guess God is protecting me that time. :)
Nah, the time when my mom's is still pregnant, my parent's work didn't go so well, so they are kind of desperately needs money that time to finance the maternity hospital, which my mom needs to get surgery to give a birth.

But God helps them through it, my dad didn't intentionally play gambling, and he won in a sufficient amount to pay the hospital where I was born.
Errr.... that's not a good... start huh. :'D
Well yeah.. we can  never choose how we live but I'm glad that I am alive.
They tell me after I was born, their works slowly raising, well not on too top, but it's good enough to finance all the family members. I guess I'm the one who brings their lucky star. LOLOLOLL!!

And moving to another chapters, bisa saya rasakan kalau saya tidak pernah kekurangan sesuatu apapun sejak saya lahir dan besar, mungkin hidup aku dulu jauh lebih enak drpd sekarang, bayangkan saja.. nikmatnya menjadi anak perempuan satu-satunya yang tidak pernah merasakan SHARING with another sibling, entah masalah baju, makanan, atau mainan. hahaha.. that makes me kind of egoism.
Apapun yang aku minta, tidak akan butuh waktu lama untuk mendapatkannya, mungkin inilah yang membuat saya SULIT MENERIMA kalau aku tidak mendapatkan sesuatu yg aku mau dengan cepat.

Begitu juga dengan hal melepaskan, saya tahu susahnya mendapatkan, maka dari sanalah saya belajar untuk tidak  mudah melepaskan.
Dalam hal melepaskan apapun, entah memberikan barang2 saya yg sudah tidak pernah dipakai.

Too much that I can't type it one by one.
Time flies and it's kinda bit too hard, I fell in love with a guy who's 7 years older than me, that time I'm still sitting in Junior High while he's already in Collage and we meet online, Friendster is the most IT social media back then before moving to Facebook.
Eversince that day, we slowly lost contact and I meet someone new, but DUH I couldn't make it official cuz he's one of my bff's ex, I choose my friend over that boy, cuz I value friendship more..

After that, we both lost contact and well... I'm over it,
And then I meet the guy I met online again, when I'm already in Senior High while he's working already.. well we meet.. online like MSN, or still on friendster then moving to Facebook. We chat almost everyday, I know his schedule too. And once a while we meet unintentionally at the mall..
Haha everything seems run smoothly as I ever imagined (let's just say I'm a little bit "baper".

Till the day that breaks my heart was in my 17th birthday when I invited him but he couldn't make it with so many reasons. But then when I woke up in the middle of the night and opened my FB, I just realize the reason that he couldn't came is that he's just in a relationship with another girl (well it didn't last too long in the end).
But it affects me too deep that time, trust me.. I don't feel like living a happy life since that day, ga punya semangat ngapa2in, sekolah juga malas, ngapain aja malas, and I never imagine that aku bisa begitu , but thanking all my bff who cheer me up till I'm over it! :)
Then we graduated from high school, well.. I still keep in touch with that guy,but only just asking how you doing bla bla bla, nothing else.
My life's fine so far without him, and thank God that I made it, I get through it.

Moving to another chapter..
When I was still FAT as hell, well.. my weight reach on 89kgs after holiday to China (I weight 85 before going to china), and oh my god.. I never imagine that I would be that fuckin' fat back then.
I just think that it's fine as long as I'm healthy, and still thinking that if someone really loves me, it wouldn't matter if I'm fat). Oh damn.. anggap saja pikiran orang hopeless yg ga bisa kurus meski diet gimana aja, and after that, well back in 2011 I'm still fat as hell, then I started diet, slowly and slowly, after 6 months not going anywhere, NOT going to hangout with friends.. Finally the skinnier me was born, I know I'm still fat, at least I lost about 15kgs in 6 months, and I'm PROUD OF IT, I show them that I CAN, and here I am.. I'm reaching 75kg, and then slowly to 70kgs, and slowly gaining 5kgs again, and then back to 70kgs, it stays about few years. And now still in diet condition, and reaching the 65kgs!!
5 more kgs to go! Well, it's good if I could make it 10 kgs more to lose :)

Moving to another chapters again,
I meet a guy while I'm still in dieting progress, and yeah we meet online, yes online all over again.
After the incident few years ago, I never responded anyone from online, I never never never had feelings from someone that I didn't know personally or I never saw in real life.
There's a lot of guy that keeps sending me a message but I don't respond it to be frank, but when I see that guy had mutual friends that I personally know I was thinking that "why not just be friend".

And slowly the time flies, we meet the first time at sutos, well.. that was the first time I see him, and it took only.. well maybe 3 minutes. And slowly we getting closer and closer, through ups and down, through every problems, well.. it didn't took so long for us to finally be in a relationship that time, but it didn't last for so long, only 5 months and it's LDR (you know LDR sucks really). (Sebut saja, hal yang di dapat terlalu cepat ga akan bertahan lama).

Ingatlah, aku yg sekarang bukan aku yang pernah kamu kenal beberapa tahun lalu..
I used to hate clubbing, I never drink alcohol, I never stay up late outside my house more than 12 am, I follow the rules. I am a good good girl, before someone totally brokes my heart to pieces. Remember that.. that guy used to be my first boyfriend, and I was like thinking that maybe he's the right one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. BUT I GUESS I'M WRONG. Anggap saja dibutakan cinta & terlalu polos hahahahahaha :)

It was my second heartbreak, well.. heartbreak ter-PARAH I guess. :)
What's a relationship that builds up with lie lie and lie?
Oh well.. (anggap saja masih terlalu polos saat itu hingga mudah sekali dibohongi dan termakan janji2 palsu wkwkwkwk)
Dan pertama kalinya bisa sayang setelah sekian lama, tapi ternyata...
Sayang itu gak dihargai :)

Eversince that day, I completely lose my mind, well.. I ever thought that it's better to not to get attached with someone else and let my mom or grandma pick someone who I had to marry with (istilahnya kesel cari pasangan yg pas, mendingan dicariin tinggal jalanin, kalo nantinya ga cocok ya udah kan at least bukan salah aku kalo SALAH PILIH PASANGAN, drpd mencocokan diri tapi pada akhirnya ga bisa bersama *ceileh*)

I never trust someone easily after that, all I can hear was a lie, lie, and lie :)
And seems that I can't even know which real and which is a lie.

That was me post break-up, labil dan gampang terpengaruh buruk -____-
Yg dulunya anak baik yang manis ga aneh2..
Look at me now, I go clubbing, I drink alcohol, mostly few times a week. Pernah mabuk, tapi untuk sekarang sudah cukup lah masa-masa mabuk2an, meski mabuk masih bisa kontrol diri pulang  ke rumah sendiri bawa mobil pula. LOL!
Well this was my first time telling people this, and I hope kalian bukan menyalah artikan, I asked permission to go clubbing, both my parents and brothers knows it. Bukan yg aku diem2 pergi ga bilang kalau clubbing dsb.

Thank God I had the COOLEST FAMILY ever!!!
Sometimes I feel sorry to my parents that I ended up having a bad habit. Well I couldn't say what's the reason of my rebellious act, because I was thinking that NOT EVERYONE understand and accepts. Remembering that my other family is too KOLOT and my bestfriends used to know me as a one of good person (at least not that bad).
It's hard to find someone to share, I mean, bener-bener ngerti and didn't judge me because of it.

And after post breaks up,
before I am unemployed, I didn't go to collage, I think it's wasting time, cuz all of my family members that go to collage ends up... buka toko sendiri & jadi ibu2 RT (re: Rumah tangga).
So I simply think that collage is not that important, at least for me..
Dr sana lah hidup jd pengacara dimulai, alias pengangguran banyak acara, aku poikir sih beberapa bulan lah nganggur dulu, bosen juga belajar trus.. ga kerasa, time flies, sudah jd pengacara selama 3 tahun, HAHAHAHA terhitung lulus SMA taun 2010, baru2 belajar yg namanya makeup di 2013, sampe skrg kerjaan jadi makeup-artist wkwkwk :D

Nah moving to working life that I've been having in current 2 years now,
first of all I never imagine my life now, I never imagine that I would be a makeup-artist, ever.
Yes I do love makeup since I was 2 years old. I used to play with my mom's lipstick and draw all over the wall with it. hahahahaha :D

Well, it's all started when someone told me to go to course, at least I'm not a pengangguran. But I didn't do it langsung, instead because of a lot of people kinda annoys me, dan banyak orang yg ngatain, nyindir, dan jelek2in, they said that I couldn't, aku gak bisa kerja, bisanya cuma makan tidur shopping ngabis2in duit ortu, well I know that, why not?? Mama2 guehhh, kenapa lu yg sewot, iri banget jd org wkwkwkwk :p
Ingatlah, itu pikiran anak yg masih menginjak usia 20 tahun dan dalam masa2 labil.

I'm not the type of person who socialized too much, especially with strangers, I choose the people I want to interact with, if you can't catch my attention, well.. sorry I won't responded you.
But it's all changes, the way I look at people, and how I respond.
I have to be nice, be nice, and be nice.
My job is to interact with people, and also with strangers.
That way I change a little bit socialized.

But I remember one of the reason, I want to proof to someone that I could be a better one, better than I am before, better than me that he met earlier, that Lia's from 0 to 9 (10 is too perfect).
I want to make him regret of losing me. REMEMBER THAT.
I am arrogant, sarcastic, and a little bit kasar. hahaha. I always think that I have to be better better and better each day.

That man told me to find someone MUCH MORE BETTER THAN HIM, financial or looks.
But, looking at someone who he chooses instead of me.. yang ga ada apa-apanya, sorry to say.. bitchy & ga punya etika. (ga usah sewot kalo merasa WKWKWK kan di dunia yg bitchy & ga punya etika ga cuma elu doangg keleusss)
Sungguh mengecewakan to be frank.. :)
And if you think you're perfect, DUH.. nobody's perfect!
Even the kindest person have sins.
Even those people who go to church on Sunday too!!
Nah the point is, iya kalo kalahnya sama bule sihhhh guehh terima aja, uda keliatan kalee kalahnya dimana hahahaha lah ini..... :D (that's exactly what I thought few years ago)

Beside those things, I want to prove to both of my parents that I could make them proud!
I know lah kalo ga banyak yg bisa mereka banggain dari aku, udah ga pernah nurut, susah diatur, kepala batu, se enaknya sendiri, egois, yaaa maklum lah ya ga pernah ada saingan dari kecil, apa-apa juga punya sendiri GA SHARING, jadi TOLONG DEH YAAA kalo masalah sharing, it's a big NO NO, apalagi sharing pasangan WKWKWKWKWK! :D
Boro-boro sharing, elu pake 1x aja kagak rela deh guehh asliii.. LOL

As time flies and putting much effort to be who I am today that I never ever imagined of, I am thanking God for all of the problems he put me through, karena.. dimana problem ngebuat aku yg sekarang bukan aku yang dulu, yang bisa dibilang lemah mentalnya lah yaa..
Sometimes, aku pikir aku terlalu keras, and takes life too seriously. Yes obviously.

So many of my friends, told me to take it easy, play the game, have fun with boys, and forget the rules and take chances, fuck off with what happen tomorrow. HEY, I CAN'T!!
You just don't know me well enough to say that to me, I had a deep and very deep thoughts of it.

Kamu belum tahu susahnya jadi aku, although all of you see me doing WELL and LIVE WELL.
I will never be in a relationship that I know it wouldn't last longer, I knew my life, my family.
When two people were married, it means two families are married too!

I know I sounds too old, but thats exactly what I thought.
Saya bukan type orang yang mau PHP-in orang lain, karena saya TAHU PERSIS bagaimana rasanya di PHP hahahahahaha njirrrr sakitnya bukan main sob!
Bukan type orang yang suka mainin orang yg emg serius, karena saya TAHU PERSIS rasanya dipermainkan waktu serius.
Bukan type orang yg mau BAPER, biar jauh-jauh dr sakit hati, karena saya TAHU PERSIS rasanya sakit hati, berasa uda mati rasa kali yaa skrg kalo ditanya..

In  my life, well.. from the very first beginning, aku sudah punya pegangan hidup, punya tuntutan hidup yang setidaknya harus dijalani meskipun I don't really care. Semua sudah tertanam di mindset, and it's NOT THAT EASY to let go of that mindset..

Tidaklah mudah menjadi seorang Lia Octaviani yang selama ini dikenal orang sungguh menikmati hidup dan mudah menjalani hidup (maaf yaa kata2nya sedikit dramatis hahahaha).
Seorang Lia Octaviani yang dikenal menjadi makeup-artist.
Seorang Lia Octaviani yang orang-orang tahu mudah cari duit.
Seorang Lia Octaviani yang hidup sedikit hedon meskipun ga seperti cece2 sosialita yg lebay lifestylenya diumbar-umbar. (ga nyalahin sihh namanya juga org hedon wkwkwkwkwk)
Seorang Lia Octaviani yang setiap weekend selalu clubbing.
Seorang Lia Octaviani yang dulunya gendut skrg lumayan agak kurus (HAHAHAHA).
Satu kata yaa... GAK GAMPANG! :)

I guess I'm lucky enough to live a wonderful life, thankyou to both of my parents yang sudah maksa belajar makeup, kalo ga beneran dehh ga bisa menikmati hidup skrg :)
I wish both of my parents live longer than I am.
Wouldn't trade them with anything.

Just because you see me drinking, clubbing, doesn't mean I'm a bad person.
Setidaknya meski ak clubbing, aku masih tahu BATAS, I will never touch drugs.
Masih ada tanggung jawab kerja, kerja ya kerja, clubbing ya clubbing, meski kadang kerja after clubbing hahahaha :D
It took me years to realize that it wasn't a good habit.
I'm grateful, that I still had bunch of friends that encourage me to be better.

Kamu ga bisa menyalahkan keadaan entah dr segi keluarga atau masa lalu yg kelam untuk jadi seseorang yang bisa dibilang RUSAK, karena itu pilihan..
Sebagaimana kamu membawa dirimu, setidaknya lebih maju, bukan mundur..

Jangan salahkan keadaan kalau nanti kamu termasuk orang yang GAGAL menjalani hidup, karena hidupmu ada di tanganmu.

Lingkungan juga lah yang membuat dirimu, antara jadi lebih maju, atau mundur..

Berterima kasihlah pada mereka yang masih mengkritik kamu, because they paid more attention.
Bersedihlah saat tidak ada lagi mereka yang mengkritik, karena dari sana lah kamu tahu kalau mungkin mereka sudah melupakan kamu.

Jangan merasa terintimidasi dengan omongan mereka yang mungkin tidak enak di dengar, tapi jadikanlah itu boomerang untuk mau bisa menjadi sosok seseorang yang BETTER dan LEBIHHHH baik dr kamu sekarang. :)

And now it's about friendship..
BEDAKANLAHHHH!!!
Dalam arti mana teman yang bisa kamu ajak bersenang-senang saja, dan mana teman yang bisa bersedih dan senang bersama. Dan juga mana teman yang bisa membuatmu jauh lebih baik dan maju, dan mana teman yg membuatmu mundur, dan mana teman yg sengaja dekat supaya bisa melihatmu jatuh perlahan.

Teman bersenang-senang dalam arti seperti saya yaa... clubbing (contoh paling mudah).

Teman bersedih dan senang dalam arti saya ya... yg ada waktu kamu susah senang, bukan yg susah ditinggal, tapi kalo seneng2 selalu muncul. :)

Teman yg bisa jadiin kamu lebih baik itu teman yg bisa mengkritik kamu, and encourage you. Kalau ketemu selalu ada pembahasan yang bermutu, contoh saja masalah pekerjaan, dan mungkin yg bisa membantu pekerjaanmu.

Teman yg membuatmu selangkah mundur dalam arti saya ya yg ngajak2 rusak WKWKWKWKWK contoh aja yg ngajak2 ngeroom, ngobat, dan apapun yg sekiranya tidak baik untuk masa depanmu.
Karena bagi saya, teman yang baik itu kalau mau rusak ya rusak sendiri, ga ngajak2 yg lain.

Teman yg sengaja dekat biar bisa lihat kamu jatoh itu yaaa.... yang kyk gitu ituhh lah. Baik di depan, dibelakang main tusuk. HAHAHAHA :)
Memang ga heran sihh jaman sekarang apapun dilakoni biar puas, temen sendiri aja dimakan. GILEEE ga tuh lu.. :)))

TAPI, sebagaimana kalo kamu teman yg baik, setidaknya kasih pengertian mereka supaya kembali ke jalan yg lurus, masalah diterima ato nggak nya nasehat kamu, yaa terserah yg melakoni, syukur2 diterima, kalo ga ya uda deh yaa..
toh nantinya yg menjalani dan rugi yaa yg bersangkutan...
Kita mahh bawa dalam doa aja :)
Pada dasarnya orang yg mau berubah jadi lebih baik bisa menelaah yg baik, bukan terintimidasi dgn nasehat.

Sebelum bertidak, pikirkanlah panjang2, karena... yg sudah terjadi ya terjadilah..
Tidak ada waktu yg bisa diputar kembali. :)

Someone told me, ga usah menyesali apa yang sudah terjadi, tapi jadikanlah itu pelajaran supaya kamu tidak jatuh dilubang yang sama..
Kamu melakukannya juga atas dasar rasa sayang, meskipun rasa sayangmu itu kadang disalah-arti kan.
Yg terpenting sekarang, sebagaimana kamu berusaha jd lebih baik, dan bisa membedakan mana yg baik dan buruk.
Ketahuilah, karma itu ada percaya tidak percaya..
Ga selamanya orang yg diatas itu selalu ada di atas, dan yg dibawah selalu di bawah.
Do good and be good, so the good will come to you!! :)

Oh God, I never thought I will wrote this blog SO LONG..
I am sorry to make you read this..
Saya cuma sebatas mencurahkan pikiran, tanpa mau menyindir pihak mana pun, jd no offense yee cyinn..

So this will be my last long post, and the end of this post..
Lega sekali setelah sekian lama ada waktunya untuk mencurahkan uneg2 :)
Have a good day fellas, till the next post!

                                                                            xoxo,

                                                                                              Lia ♥

OFFICIALLY 22!

Hello everyone,
so yesterday (okay it's 40 minutes ago btw) was my 22nd birthday, YEAH I am officially 22!! It's on October'28, 2014.

So here's a little speech I made yesterday as seen on my Instagram,

"Thankyou for another new chapter of my life, it's only by HIS grace that I could survive this tough life so far with His truly uncountable blessings & His kindness, through the good & the bad, with the ups & down, happy or sad. Meeting a couple of new friends, losing some people (yes people come & goes), having another new experience, and know how to enjoy life while you working hard too.
This shall be the new beginning for me, while I'm growing up, I should become a little more wiser than I am now, I need to improve myself to be a better version of me than myself yesterday. Thankyou for those who stands beside me through the bad & the good times! Another year of me had passed, another greater future is waiting, and well.. now I am officially 22!"

It is sad actually that I didn't received any greetings from the one, yeah.. this one special person I mean.
Well yeah, things didn't happen just like what I want. I understand.
But it's okay, really. Maybe he's just too busy. It's fine. :)

And OH, look what I've got this year :)
My BFF is just so sweet HAHAHA (but well I wish I got this from that special person)

And also cake!! Thankyou my 2nd sister in law & ma bro :-*

Thankyou for the well wishes everyone! Most of their wishes were about getting succeed in my career, getting more skinnier (yeah my wish too), hoping to find a good BF real soon, and also hoping that I could leave the nightlife kind of lifestyle as soon as possible (I will soon), and all the best for my future. I am truly blessed getting another chance to live another awesome year surrounded by families & friends! THANKYOU!! :)

                                             xoxo,

                                                        Lia

What a year can do

Hello everyone,
so here I am today with another chit-chat time again.
hahaha so sorry if you're damn bored with my blog contents.
Well you know in life, sometimes we're happy, we're sad, we're confuse, etcetera. And I'm on the middle of nowhere I don't even know what exactly I'm feeling right now. Weird. Yeah. Whatever you said.

So, I know it's in the middle of the night, where everyone is barely now sleeping and having a sweet dream, while me still awake and doing some random things, like this, chit-chat with my own laptop, listening to some random music, well I put it on shuffle, then checking on my facebook, trying few clothes (oh well idk why I do this such of things in 2 am LOL I think I'm a weirdo), looking at my beauty space OH i mean my own table with full of any kind of makeup, well most of all, I think a lot, I mean I've got this freshly brain in almost every midnight, oh yeah.. *am I too talkative? lol*

Now, what I was thinking is how my life changes a lot in just a year, looking back on last year, where I still a "jobless", you could say "pengangguran" in Indonesian, all I can think about is holiday, hangout, party-ing (well I start to go to such club last year before my birthday), shopping, manicure-pedicure, etc.

And thank God, now I had a job, I start to build up my career, I already taken my beauty class and ready to get another course in few months ahead, well I know I still can't get over from partying kind of lifestyle, pity me, but I'll make sure I will get over it really soon.

And umm.. Thank God for what you've done for my life, even if it's not always good, I really thankful, especially for last birthday present from you. I never ask for more, but you give me more than I deserve, well I didn't wish it would happen that day, but it was my best birthday ever, I can see that one person who I really wanted to meet, and voila.
Ok, now it's nothing.
Yeah.. I know it's been a rough year for me. I was end up getting dumped by someone I really loved, yeah that someone who I really wanted to meet on my last birthday last year, hahaha.. Well love sucks, oh no, people around us sucks.
But, yeah.. That's a part of life, you can't always get what you want right? :)
It's pretty amazing what a year can do, well you'll never know how far you had change if you didn't look back, you can look back but don't dwell on past, it's kinda useless you know.

I am glad that I can get through it little by little, there was something I really grateful about, problems that makes me who I am today, I know I'm not strong enough, but I know I will get through everything, if I want to try.
Still can't get through it? TRY HARDER. 
I know it's easier to talk like that, but I exactly know how hard is it, but once you get through it, you know that it's the best thing that you can do. Sometimes what I really need is just time, people said time heals almost everything, but no, your wounds might heal, but the scars will always there, even if it's invisible. Agree? hahahaha why am I got a lot of quotations in my head huh?

So yesterday I hangout with few friends, well they're just like my third family, one of my friend said that "Cinta itu tidak harus memiliki", once I agreed with that quote, but the boys didn't. hahaha Idk why, but they said that "kalau kamu selalu mikir cinta tidak harus memiliki, maka kamu ga akan pernah bisa maju kedepan." Umm I kinda confuse with this FYI. People said, if you love someone, let them go, set them free, if they're comeback, s/he's YOURS. Oh it happen once, but yeah he's not mine eventually. hahaha..

Just so you know, I only said what I want to say, I tell you this long long story, doesn't mean that I still can't get over him okay, that's a part of life, you can never really get over something you know? Can you see, I'm still me, I'm alive, I never tied my life hanging on someone so when they're left, I still alive, breathing, and go on with my life. That's true, don't tie your happiness on someone else's  life. They might once said that they can't live without you, but now SEE? they're still alive right? hahaha kidding. :)

When i said, I am happy if you're happy, even if it's not with me, it's fucking true. You know, I'd rather be a HONEST asshole than a LYING bitch. 
I know exactly how it feels to be lied to. I don't want anyone else to feel the same way like what I already feel before. You could say that I'm blind that time, I know the truth but still act like a foolish girl who put everything aside just because of the love she had for that someone who never ever love her, respects her, and want her. 
No one ever wants it, but people have to fall over sometimes, not because they deserve it, it's a way of life teaches you how to be a good and better person in the future.

So maybe, this is the end of chit-chat time.
It took me one hour to type this emotional kind of post. LOL
I'll seeyou in another post!
Ciaoooo

                                                                                xoxo,

                                                                                          Lia ♥

Another one year.

Thank God for almost everything he's done in my life, for another year of my life, for the good & the bad things ever happened in my life, for all the things he had given & he taught for a year.

Thank you for showing me the things that I need to learn, so I could be a better person in the future. I never imagined that within a year, a lot of things have changed when I look back.

But life isn't meant to be traveled backwards, so leave everything that's already happen to where they supposed to be "PAST", and go forward.

I'm so READY to growing up again.

WELCOME OCTOBER!
I deserve BETTER this year! :)

                                                                                          xoxo,

                                                                                                            Lia.

Twen-Teen

 
Hello everyone,
hahahaha I guess you're now thinking about my blog title above right?
I got this words from my friend Gabriella yesterday, as you remember that my birthday is on this October 28.
I'm going to 20 !!!! *wtf*
Yea I'm old enough now *cough*
 Remember that last year I'm just updated my blog with "Happy Birthday to me" #lol

How pity, I'm 20 and single. Okay okay, you may laugh now. I broke up with my boyfie last month, the reason? It's personal, not for public.

I admit that I'm still kinda upset sometimes, since he was my first boyfriend, but life goes on right?



I was wondering that I could spent my birthday this year with someone special, but it fades away now. 
What can I do? I do my best to keep this relationship, but what can I do if God wants it differently. *sob*

So yea back to the first topic, Twen-Teen is just another meaning of Twenty and Teenager. You know that twenty is not so YOUNG wtf.
She said that we're still young, so she change "Twenty" to "Twen-Teen". hahahahahahaa



I guess yea we're still young and free but not wild. #lol
YOLO! do what makes you happy ;)

Ah, happy eid al-adha to those who celebrate it :)
And, RIP to those goats and the cows. How sad.. 

                                                                                    xoxo,

                                                                   Lia.

Week of Pleasure

Hello everyone..
Last week my friend Steffy is coming back to hometown from Singapore, she had a holiday and today she's already on plane and back to Singapore :(

Okay, Steffy is my friend since we're still in Junior High, but we're close since in Senior High, during SHS period, she's one of my close friend until now, even she's studying abroad. Oh I miss those chit-chat conversation during classes steff! :)

It sucks really, I will miss our "FUN" time together..
It's more than a week I guess,
We're going to club, karaoke-ing, hang out together for a week straight!
What a great time..
And to be honest *LOL* promise y'all didn't laugh,
it's my first time going to club in Surabaya *wtf* 

Remembering that I'll be 20 this Oct'28, at least let me know the atmosphere of the night club. *trololololl* 

So, here's some picture of us having fun together in a week..

 Saturday, 13.10.2012 - Capital & M1

 From Left to Right: *bottom* Della - Lia - Wulan  *up* Steffy -Levinna - Vero

  From Left to Right: *bottom* Della - Lia - Wulan  *up* Steffy -Levinna - Vero - Winda

  From Left to Right: *bottom* Della - Lia - Wulan  *up* Steffy -Levinna - Vero - Winda

  Levinna - Steffy - Lia

Monday, 15.10.2012 - Pisa Cafe

 Devi - April - Steffy - Lia - Lianata

 Lianata - Lia - Steffy - April - Devi

Tuesday, 16.10.2012 - Ciputra World-NAV

Chesoen - Villy - Ferry - Alvin - Evan - David - Steffy - Lia - Christian - Joshua - Andyka

Friday, 18.10.2012 - Capital & M1

 Winda - Lia - Steffy - Dellz - Nadya

Lia - Steffy - Della

 Nadya's bf - Nadya - Christian - Winda - Chesoen - Alvin - David - Lia - Steffy - Della

  Nadya's bf - Nadya - Christian - Winda - Chesoen - Alvin - David - Lia - Steffy - Della

 Della - Winda - Lia - Steffy

  Andyka - Christian - Chesoen | Alvin - Winda - Lia - Steffy - David

 Andyka - Christian - Chesoen | Alvin - Winda - Lia - Steffy - David

 Alvin - Lia - Steffy - Winda

Chesoen - Lia - Steffy - Alvin - Winda - Christian - David

The Last Night (Saturday, 20.10.2012) - Capital & M1

Lia - Steffy

Vero - Steffy - Lia

** Sorry, we missed the photo session during in M1, it's too crowd inside and we choose to left earlier and go to Mc'Donalds. #lol **

Thankyou for a wonderful week Steff :)
Have a safe flight, seeyou in January'13 !
Will miss ya..

                                                                      xoxo,

                                                          Lia ♥